Holy Week

This week has been profoundly transformative for me.

First, I accepted the call to fast this week and although I fast often, this was solely for spiritual reasons though I didn’t know any more than that. I began by having my last meal on Saturday evening and when I went to church on Sunday morning (Palm Sunday) I was plunked down smack in the middle of my journey with no warning. Rev Bob presented a sermon/message/lesson that I found unique…to my ears anyway.

He talked about the last seven sentences that Jesus spoke from hanging on the cross. He told us that all those sentences were not to be found in any one of the Gospels but that we would have to read the crucifixion story in all four Gospels and cobble it all together. He used those sentences to teach us how we could go deeper each day this week by applying a sentence a day till we reached Easter morning. A kind of study guide to help us reach our own crucifixion, and create our own resurrection and transformation.

I found the process to be a fantastical experience ~ and I’m still reeling from the wonder of it all the day after Easter Sunday

I ended up not working last week, a choice I can make with the work I do as an independent contractor. I did not make this choice lightly because I am usually anxious about what I sometimes perceive to be lack. I made this choice because it felt WRONG to go out and work. I cannot find a word that better frames this. I agree it may sound somewhat dramatic but that is what I felt in my innermost being. 

Instead I’ve spent the week ministering to others. Sitting with friends, students and family in total non-judgment and praying with them and allowing them to just be. I’ve witnessed divine synchronicities with wonder and awe. But most profound has been the metamorphosis within me. Forgiveness work that I thought I had completed, at least was on the road to complete, took a new and very unexpected turn.

I now have a greater sense of who I am. I am able to look at particular questions straight in the face that previously I would avoid. Questions like: 

·      “What would a higher level of myself look like?” Ask that of yourself and then sit with it because it is unlikely that an answer will quickly come forth. It is a question to ask oneself throughout one’s day, week, year. “What would a higher level of myself look like?”

Easter is about possibilities. Crucifixion is about letting go…letting go of all my pre-conceived ideas of how anything should turn out or ideas about who I “should” become. The act of surrender is letting go of everything and standing with an open heart and open hands…then sitting in the grace of stillness to become aware of what is mine to do…without struggle or anxiety. But to do it from a state of peaceful expectancy. 

It has been a deeply spiritual time of insights that I am not yet able to fully put into words. But what I can say is I feel more awake.

 More aware. 

More conscious than ever before with a greater sense of who I am. What a gift!

And I must add here: GRATEFUL...Oh, so grateful!!! Thank-you, my God!

I pray that you, my dear readers, have experienced a most blessed Easter and that your life is being transformed. 

As always, I offer you an opportunity to talk with me, if you wish at revlululogan@gmail.com