Faith Will Take You Deeper

My learnings these past 2 weeks have caused deep self-reflection, deep revelations and deep emotions that seemed to cover that colorful spectrum of being human. For the most part I didn’t enjoy this trip down the rollercoaster of emotions. I never do. But because I was open to observing, witnessing all the shadows within, meaning I did not resist my feelings of “less-than”, “not-good-enough”…just the general malaise of inferiority, I was able to not only move through relatively quickly, but also come through with new awareness, new insight and renewed excitement. 

         I found myself more able to look at my truth and not be so concerned with the paths or choices of others within my sphere. I’ve spent a lifetime attempting to squish my weirdo self into the square or even round pegs of others.  This, of course, never works and it was never supposed to work yet try I did. Having few friends as odd as I thought I was, I identified myself as broken somehow, wrong, a misfit who never found the island of misfit toys.

         FINALLY, after decades of trying to figure out what is wrong with me, I am embracing all that is right with me. All my idiosyncrasies, my quirks, my hippy weirdo thinking, my oddities, and as my children say, “Mom, your just a little cray-cray”, ~~~ these are now the things about me that bring me joy. I smile in the mirror each morning and tell myself I am perfect just the way I am. And though I’m still not fond of the ever-increasing wrinkles that are appearing, even those are etchings of a life well-lived!

         As I sit in the comfort of my bed on this gorgeous, freshly washed Sunday morning ~~thank you much needed rain ~~I gaze out the window with deep gratitude. I hear the birdsong and crickets. Jack the dog snores gently by my side and Georgia the cat, purring, is pressed up against my other side. At this very moment, life could not be better.

         My joy is full because I ~~ and each of you ~~ are children of the Universe. My DNA originates with Spirit. So does yours. I am as held with profound love as those birds and crickets outside my bedroom window. All is well even when my emotions get the best of me; when my thinking gets stinking; when it appears the bills are not going to get paid; when family members make choices that are harmful to themselves and there is nothing I can do; when all of life seems out of whack, spiraling out of control. Still and ALWAYS ~~~ God is my Source in every need. (Psalm 23)

Sometimes I “feel” that. Most times I do not. But my feelings do not make it true or untrue. My human feelings are fleeting and fickle. It’s my faith that makes it true. 

Today I “feel” it. Thank-you God!

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